My X-mas

I had to work all that week.
A co-worker invited me to go to his wife's mother's house for Christmas dinner.
Sometimes new is good, sometimes different is better.
They are a quiet undertoe of a mess ... these people.
But I'm not gonna get into that. Who amoungst us isn't?
The food was good and filling. That is sometimes what it about, really about
communion between strangers, even amongst differing philosophies
but done in a non-combative positive manner.
a neutral manner.

We had shrimp that were so big they cannot be called shrimp
potatoes cut and cooked with them
green bean casserole
steak
corn on the cob
dinner roll
:)

I missed the big blow out when someone's grandfather surprised them by showing up and an uncle came in saw him and pretty much turned right around and left.
Apparently those two do not get along ... at all.
I know the feeling
I wished to avoid that by not going to my family's thing.
The TV was on. Is the TV ever off in the American home? For very long?
Some kind of monitor will be on, some kind of machinery will be running.
We saw Back to the Future 2 and many parts of Holiday Inn (Black & White).

So far I have not received a card from my family. That was good. Trying to get me to feel guilty with their cards. I am not done with my anger and betrayal and simple shaking my head at their souls antics yet. I admit this. When will I be done? I do not know. I spent many many years being in the middle of it. I don't base this on anything simple or surface. Which is why I am still not healed from it. And, even so, I don't see why I must be with them ever again anyway. It's a social convention which I see no reason to emulate.

Just to do as society says is not anything to do with God's Will.

I did get cards from my co-workers. Who have known me for just a month shy of a year. I also got gifts from some. Which was very nice. Not the things, but the thoughts.
I got 3 hats from one person, a tub of made candy, 2 coffee mugs, and 2 books.

Thanksgiving came late this year, later than many years up till now.
And this ridiculous and completely unavoidable recession hit
and I'm not sure it's that
but this Holiday Season is far different than any I've seen in decades.
It feels as if sucked by a vampire.

It's Not Slipper-EEEE!

http://www.printactivities.com/ColoringPages/Winter/slip_on_ice.html

Seeker's True(ly) Hilarious Moment # ... well we stopped counting a long time ago (chuckle): So, I go out to start my car this morning, and I am walking on the apartment sidewalk, and I think this -- "This won't be so bad, the sidewalks aren't even slipper-" EEEE! Then I slip and loose my balance and fall forwards and catch myself with my hand and softly with one knee. :D:D:D:D You would have DIED laughing if you had seen me! Nobody saw me do that, darn it! I SLIPPED ON THE WORD SLIPPERY! I EVEN WENT EEEEE OUT LOUD MAKING THE Y SOUND OF SLIPPERY! HOW PERFECTLY HILARIOUS IS THAT?

Remember the Amy Lee music video for "Broken"?

When we were talking one day, we were looking at random videos. I forget who found this first, Jozie or I, but I've loved it ever since. Gets me every time:



"Broken (feat. Amy Lee)"

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away, you don't feel me, here anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

[x2]
'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore

Amber Believes Them Instead of Her Heart

What I foresaw with Amber, what I tried to prevent, happened anyway.
She has chosen poisoners over me.
With their lies and innuendos.
So that my boss had to come see me to tell me about these razor sharp rumors fling around cutting all the strings I places to support the truth.
Mayhap what I did to try tp do to prevent it created it?
NO
It was always her choice, she is choosing to listen to them and live in fear.
To care what others think of her.
To follow them.
Always following others thoughts and feelings
not her own.
She is a slave to her church and family.

I was afraid of this.

Is this just another failed rescue mission?
Did I do my part at least?
Or did I just plain fail.

NO, I don't hate her. How can I? I don't blame her. It's OK. I worry more about her than I.

She is in more trouble than I thought if she is so eager to please the majority of people that are being mean to her/deceiving her than simply accept the truth of friendship of one person.

Her real troubles are just starting if she doesn't soon learn the truth.

Please. Light, Good, Balance; help me figure out how to handle this? thanks!