TruthSeeking

I have a BA in psychology, a minor in English and a second minor in cultural anthropology. So anthropological matters are a great interest of mine, even surprising ones like Robert Temple's "The Sirius Mystery" and more. But admittedly I am a one who is neither a believer nor a debunker. I am somewhere in the middle. Stubborn yes, but still flexible enough to be able to change my view with proper logic and evidence. Otherwise I just "live and let live", I have many ideas in limbo like that. I don't see ideas as life-and-death stitching upon my skin, they are just interpretations of matters. I find from my psychology interest the individual interpretations intriguing. So, often I seem contractible in-between those two views (listening to other views and not adhering to them, but seeing them as the expression of an individual, while at the same time my want to not be deceived and search for the truth).

I can seem naive at times. I can upset people with conflict over what is the truth (which is a personal matter, a preference, not simply facts). I can be quite intuitive and smart! I can be patient and a good mentor/teacher. But I can also be impatient and counter to an individuals (and my own) natural progression. Yes, no matter my sweet smile and caring nature and live-and-let-live attitude, I do have quite the dark side!
I have had to learn to see that and try to back off when needed. Sometimes this involves not just a blow to my ego, but actual harm to myself in order to not harm another's belief system.
I just have this over riding want to not have people be trapped in deception, to be at their best. But that can come across as authoritative and abrasive.
Which is why I love talking to people, but I am alone other wise. I don't hang out with people after work or the weekends. I might go visit a friend, but for I tend to stick to myself.

Right now ... I need to figure out if I am:
A) stuck in a rut
or
B) right where I am supposed to be according to my individual Progression.

Therefore I wish I had more access to who I am what i can do. To angels/guides/my own Path and gifts or whatever. I need the kind of guidance that can get past my horns-forward defense! I can guffaw at suggestions often good ones .. like to get an exercise routine going and get health care.